Time to Make Katelyn Happy
So its Tuesday. I need a plan. Im formulating a plan. I’ve reached a point where I feel on top of this being a parent thing and I would be able to embrace the life of working moms. Not that I don’t enjoy being here for my little girl all the time every day and every night I do, but there is so much more than the joys of mommy-hood. Many many disagree but I feel that you only get out of life what you put into it. I am feeling like a real person again. I am associating with real people and identifying with others common interests and personalities. I am not holding onto my past, I am embracing my future. I no longer have to tell people what I have done in order to feel like I have accomplished anything. I am actually okay with who I am and what I do. Being solely a mom not working at all for 18 months was totally fine but I struggled with the idea of having to go back to work. If we were rich, I am pretty sure I would have wanted to go back to work at some point anyway just because I enjoy the social aspect of working but then again if we were rich I would be able to pay a nanny to be by my side if I so desired so I can’t really play the what if game.
So now that I am okay with being back at work I am trying to set goals for myself. I don’t just want to be a retail specialist forever. I want to get back to management or a lead role at some point and I like being able to have people come to me for help on how to achieve their goals. I am probably over excited and ambitious about attaining these goals and the people I am working with may think I am crazy or ask way to many questions but that’s just who I am. I want to go somewhere with what I know not just ride the ride till its over and get off. I will say my goals are more work oriented and not family oriented even though my family will ultimately benefit from me going far with work. I am not trying to have another child soon. I am not trying to be an at home mom for ten years. Right now I am trying to make Katelyn happy which I can’t honestly say I have tried to do full strength for a really long time. I am a people pleaser and I’ve spent so much time and energy trying to make everyone else around me happy. Its time I make me happy. I have a goal. Now I am working towards achieving it and an effective time frame in which that goal could be achieved.